I suppose I should be updating this page regularly. I should. Because just in case anyone peeks in once in a while (Charly perhaps?), there should be something for them to read. Some news. Because things have been happening in my life. Are happening. Will be happening too, hopefully.

To start off, New Year's turned out nothing like I would have thought. Then again, do things ever? But this particular night was so far away from what I could have imagined, that I don't even know where to start. I'm not even sure that I should. To give you some idea, I ended up getting separated from my friends and in a hotelroom, while the others where dancing all night at a club. Then, the next morning I spent taking care of L, who was feeling quite poorly and trying to figure out what had happened and how. Anyway, I got a new friend out of it. One who lives in England, mind you, so I might not get the chance to see him again, but we did have a few interesting (sometimes frighteningly funny and strange) conversations the first few days of the new year.

M never came to stay. He had found a girl on New Year's, so he only had time to come visit for a few hours the day before he left for Mexico (they went there first, before travelling south). I was glad, though, as he seemed very happy. However, now he's found out that maybe she wasn't so wonderful and maybe this other girl, that he met somewhere in Peru or something, is more right for him. Let me clarify, she's not from Peru (or wherever it was), she's French. Why on earth that's so important to point out, I don't know. He falls in love much too easily, as I have told him. He doesn't listen, of course. And why should he? Am I some sort of authority on relationships? Hardly.

I've moved to Lund, after much deliberation. I got a job in Copenhagen and was thinking about maybe moving there, but luckily I didn't. First of all, the rent there is much higher and second, I haven't been working much in Copenhagen anyway. Have mostly been in Stockholm doing hall tests. So I worked for a couple of months and have now started on a C-course in Ecology, just 5 days ago. The thing is that I actually miss working. But I guess that's good too, since I hope to be doing just that this summer. As much as possible, so I can get rich!!! Or, alternatively, so I can survive the fall without taking more student loans.

But I think part of my longing to go back to work stems from an unhappiness that is growing inside. Blaming it on hormones for now, combined with my financial situation. Have had to go to the doctor a few times and then there's the medicine and finally a small operation that I need/want, that will set me back a little over 3000 SEK (about 300 Euro).

The operation might actually reduce the gap between my teeth, which I'm not sure what I think about yet. But I guess it's okay. As L said, "It's charming, but you will still be you, with or without the gap." And sometimes I think that it would be nice to have a bit more of a "mainstream" smile. And either way, it probably won't disappear completely, just might become a tiny bit smaller.

Have been feeling a bit out of it lately. Feeling lonely and doubting whether I actually have any real, good relationships or if it's all just a game and nobody's really there for me. And maybe noone cares, not really. And maybe everything I thought I knew was just an illusion. But then I tell myself that it's just hormones or stress or boredom playing tricks on my poor little mind and that I should take a deep breath and move on before I drive myself completely mad.

Ah, yes, boredom. After having been away on jobs for two months with only a few days off, I found myself bored out of my mind after having had a week off before the Ecology started. Should perhaps add that before that I had only worked a few days since a two week brake induced by illness. L thinks I'm absolutely mad because I hate the idea of letting a thing like high feever, nausea and dizzyness keep me from going to Stockholm for a week to work. I was persuaded, though, as I realised that I had trouble standing up straight and that might lead to some complications when you're trying to get people to talk to you on the street.

Anyway, now we've started a couple of projects for the course and hopefully that will give me enough of a feeling of something to do. A bit of responsibility and perhaps even a challenge. How I long for a challenge.

And now I've just spent about two hours putting this post together. Guess I've slowed down my writing. I need to practice more. But anyway, a short update has been delivered. Enjoy!

Changed commenting-host, since the old one stopped working. Hoping that this one will keep for longer. Might write more later but right now I'm trying to work this template out.